The mathod of close to someone

I can't sleep this dawn. I wanna keep going listen to the jamiroquai music and write to my feeling. I saw that my favorite american drama which Ghost Whisperer just now. Mellinda Golden is not close to her's mother. They don't understand to each other. I know that this is very important. If I want to be a close to someone then I must open my mind to someone. Nowadays, I don't know what am I to do. Even thought by myself. Worse and worse I break up from close to my friend and with someone's relationship. I don't want it. But I always do this. I realize this time. That is, I must not do that. I wanna be happy tomorrow with near my persons.